Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Where is God on the Bad Days?

Veterans day is a hard day for me for personal reasons. It is getting easier but I really wanted to just stay in bed all day and cry. 
All 3 boys were extra wild today. I spent most of my day refereeing them. 
Bills are piling up. I am not sure how much longer I can afford my apartment under my current financial situation. 
My car is falling apart and I have no means to fix it and even if I did the car is not in my name and could be taken away any day. 
My baby has terrible asthma. It took me 4 months just to find a doctor covered by my insurance who was taking new patients. I finally got an appointment for today and then my car battery died I had to find someone to give me a jump start just to try and get to the appointment on time and then I got lost trying to find the place. I drove in circles for 20 minutes while calling the office but no one answered. When I finally got there I had no idea where in the building to go. I was probably too flustered to read the signs correctly. I went to every floor in the building running from office to office trying to find the office I needed. I got there 16 minutes late. The woman at the front desk told me I would have to reschedule but he needed to get a referral to a pulmonologist and the next appointment is not until December. 
I wanted to take the kids to a Christian Surfer event at the beach but after all was said and done, it was too late to go. 

So where was God on this bad day? How do you count your blessings on a day like this?
I remembered the veterans in my family who have blessed me. My dad, both grandfathers and two uncles served in the military. 
I get to be a mom. Kids are hard work but if it weren't for their bickering, I would have stayed in bed all day and cried. They really are my reason for getting out of bed.
Every time I have a financial need, God finds a way to meet it. This month I found a gift card in my sock drawer from last Christmas and I have been able to use it to buy food. 
My pastor paid to have my battery replaced. So that I don't have to carry around jumper cables and beg for a jump every where I go. 
I found a doctor walking through the parking lot who was able to direct me to the office building. 
I admit I had a break down when they told me I would have to reschedule. They talked with the doctor while I stood there and sobbed. The woman behind me in line was so sweet. She gave me tissues and even tried to plead on my behalf. They did take us back. The doctor was wonderful. 
We did not get to go to the Christian surf event but we did get to go to the boys first night of soccer practice this season. Even Hershey got to kick the ball around with one of the other little brothers. 

Life is what you make it. If I chose to dwell on all the things that are bringing me down, I would never be able to get back up. If I remember to thank God for the blessings that He has given me each day, He will continue to bless me. 
  • In language, Skittles had to find the verb in a few sentences. Twizzler had to find the complete sentences and cross out the incomplete ones. Hershey did another prewriting page. 
  • Skittles did a lesson on regrouping in math. Twizzler took a quiz and got 100%!
  • In history we read about Jonah and then Skittles wrote about his favorite part in the story. Twizzler drew a picture. 
  • For science they had to define some words pertaining to animals, particularly dinosaurs, hatching out of eggs.